Let us search our own hearts

Thought provoking words from J.C. Ryle’s commentary on Matthew 22..

“There are thousands of hearers of the Gospel who derive from it no benefit whatever. They listen to it Sunday after Sunday, and year after year, and do not believe to the saving of the soul. They feel no special need of the Gospel. They see no special beauty in it. They do not perhaps hate it, or oppose it, or scoff at it, but they do not receive it into their hearts. They like other things far better. Their money, their lands–their business, or their pleasures, are all far more interesting subjects to them than their souls. It is an dreadful state of mind to be in, but awfully common. Let us search our own hearts, and take heed that it is not our own. Open sin may kill its thousands; but indifference and neglect of the Gospel kill their tens of thousands. Multitudes will find themselves in hell, not so much because they openly broke the ten commandments, as because they made light of the gospel. Christ died for them on the cross, but they neglected Him.

Let us learn wisdom from the solemn pictures of this parable, and give diligence to make our calling and election sure. We ourselves are among those to whom the word is spoken, “All things are ready, come to the marriage feast.” Let us see that we refuse not him that speaks. Let us not sleep as others do, but watch and be sober. Time hastens on. The King will soon come in to see the guests. Have we or have we not got on the wedding garment? Have we put on Christ? That is the grand question that arises out of this parable. May we never rest until we can give a satisfactory answer! May those heart-searching words daily ring in our ears, “Many are called, but few are chosen!”

– Ryle

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What I’ve been reading…

This is an excerpt from my reading this morning in Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis.

“I have heard some people complain that if Jesus was God as well as man, then His sufferings and death lose all value in their eyes, ‘because it must have been so easy for Him’. Others may (very rightly) rebuke the ingratitude and ungraciousness of this objection; what staggers me is the misunderstanding it betrays. In one sense, of course, those who make it are right. They have even understated their own case. The perfect submission, the perfect suffering, the perfect death were not only easier to Jesus because He was God, but were possible only because He was God. But surely that is a very odd reason for not accepting them? … … If I am drowning in a rapid river, a man who still has one foot on the bank may give me a hand which saves my life. Ought I to shout back (between my gasps) ‘No, it’s not fair! You have an advantage! You’re keeping one foot on the bank’? That advantage- call it ‘unfair’ if you like- is the only reason why he can be of any use to me. To what will you look for help if you will not look to that which is stronger than yourself?”

I am so thankful for a omnipotent God who saved me while I was drowning. A God who is so good and so strong I can’t even begin to comprehend. I won’t waste my breathe complaining that it was “easier for him, so it’s not a big deal” .. instead I will praise him for his ability to save me with ease.

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I miss…

I really hate that wherever I am I’m always missing people. And it’s slightly frustrating that the longer I live, the more people I’m going to meet, the more people I’m going to love, the more people I’m going to miss. I should probably just get used to it though, because it’s life. Good thing Jesus is a constant.

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Umm… I ran a half marathon today. Kind of a big life event. It was really awesome. I kinda felt like falling over the last three miles.. but I kept going, and I finished it! My goal was to finish it it under 2 hours. I’d never done anything like this before though so I really had no idea how fast I’d be able to do it. I decided to run with the 2 hour pace group.. try to run with them at least.. and I did it! I actually passed up the leader with some other people in my group in the last few miles and finished in 1:57:26 .. I’m really stoked about this. It may not be an absolutely amazing time, but it’s my time.

I’ve been wanting to run a half marathon for a few years now, but I never really thought that it would be happening anytime in the near future. It was more like “yeah! It would be so cool to run one someday!” .. then this spring Ellen was like “Dude, I think I want to run a half marathon, it’s one of those life goals that doesn’t have to happen in the distant future” and I was like “Ellen, I’m doing it with you.” So Ellen and I originally were going to run this together.. then a bunch of other people decided to do it too.. and then a bunch of people (including Ellen) dropped out for various reasons.. so the racers ended up being my sister Ruthie, one of my best friends Ashley, and myself.

Overall it was a really awesome experience, some of my good friends came out to cheer us on and it was great 🙂

I also found myself thinking during the race how amazing it is that God gave me legs.. and how He gave me the strength to move them.. and how today He gave me the strength to move them for 2 hours straight. He is pretty amazing.

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breaking news

It’s official.. I’m swearing off boys.

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Just some thoughts and happenings…

-I was accepted to the nursing program at Riverland Community College in Austin, Lord willing I’ll be starting that this fall 🙂 I’m really excited to finally start nursing school! It will be crazy to live at home again.. it’s weird to think that I haven’t really lived at home for 2 whole years.
-I can’t decide if I want to play basketball for Riverland or not.. there are lots of pros and cons to it and like I said.. I can’t decide!
-I’m running a half marathon on May 14th. I’m really excited and slightly nervous for it. I’ve never run that far in my life. The whole fact that I’m actually doing though is pretty amazing to me, I’ve been wanting to run one for the past few years and it always seemed like a distant goal.. like “well I could never run that far NOW.. but maybe someday .. after I become intense.” But I’ve just been doing it. It was less than a month ago that I thought that 6 miles was HUGE and was really psyched up about running that far.. now that I’ve run 10 miles, 6 miles seems pretty short. Which I never thought I’d say. However it is very cool. I really hope that I can become a legit runner.
-My mind has kind of been in a turmoil lately.. and I don’t know how to explain it. I hate it when people say vague things like that.. but oh well.
-It is really crazy how life happens. How we go from one thing to the next, people are born and people die, and we just roll on. I’m so glad that God is in control.
-The human body is amazing. Just how everything works together so perfectly. God is beyond brilliant.
-I really love spending time with my family. The past few days I’ve been in Michigan with about 3/4 of my immediate family. It was wonderful. I’m so so thankful for them all.
-I cannot wait for my Anatomy and Physiology 2 class to be over. It hasn’t been the most awesome experience.. plus I’ve kind of been a slacker this whole semester. I always thought that it would be so much easier to study if I just had one class.. I wouldn’t have to balance my study time between classes! (cause I suck at that). However.. I’ve found that with taking just one class, I have to fight the feeling that “oh, I really don’t have much to do, not too much to study, I just have one class” … so that’s been a struggle.. but it’s all good.
-I wish I was better at retaining information.
-I found out today I get to go home for Easter : ) I had thought that I needed to work on Saturday night.. but they called today and apparently it is my holiday off! So come Saturday at 6AM I am homeward bound : )
-I’m extremely excited to have a normal sleep schedule again.
-I’m really self-centered. I really want to love people better.
-Sometimes I really wish I could know God’s plan for me.
-I hope everyone has a blessed Easter weekend, remembering Christ’s sacrifice for us… and His victory over death!

❤ Bekah

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Jesus Cast A Look On Me

I listened to this song a few weeks ago and this verse has been popping up in my head ever since. It has really become my prayer..

Jesus cast a look on me,
Give me sweet simplicity
Make me poor and keep me low,
Seeking only Thee to know.

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